Saturday, January 7, 2012
Dear whomever is reading,
8:41am. Yup you guessed it again, I got no sleep at all last night. I’m currently listening to City and Colour, my calm music. I need to stay calm or else I might go a little crazy in a sense. Things did not go well for me yesterday. Nik, remember him? He officially ended things with me last night. Apparently I wasn’t what he wanted after all. He still isn’t over his ex. It sucks but at the same time I understand. I’m not mad at him or bitter, it just hurts a little bit. Feels like everything he said to me was a lie. I have been through basically this exact same thing before with my last boyfriend who also broke up with me because he wasn’t over his ex. I’m starting to get really tired of getting close to people and only being let down in the end. It sucks knowing that I’m not what they want. But, I’ll be fine. I always pull through these things. I don’t have much of a choice but to move on.
Moving on. That sounds like a great plan. My friend, Josalyne, and I have plans to move up to Edmonton (about an hour away from my current town). I’m really looking forward to it. We have already found a place that we absolutely love, the only thing we have to do is make an appointment to see the place and then apply for it. I am really hoping that this plan works out. Its just what I need, its what both of us need, to get out of this shit whole town and move somewhere where people don’t know us. It will be a great opportunity for me to get out and meet new people. Hey, maybe the love of my life is waiting for me there. One can only hope that great things come out of this move. It’s going to be an adventure, possibly a scary one at that, but I cannot wait. I’m beyond excited for this change in my life. I have to start living my life for me, focus on me, and do what’s best for me.
On a little bit happier note, I’m headed up to Edmonton today actually to do some shopping with my mom. We are leaving in a couple hours. Nothing a little shopping can’t cure : ) I’m hoping to get a new piercing today. I really want to get my septum done. So fingers crossed that that can happen today. Hopefully today will be a good day, new piercing, new clothes, what else could a girl ask for right?
Well, not much else to write right now. Smoke time and then going to get ready for my day. To whomever is reading, I hope you have a splendid day. Much love.
